What makes it worse is that as he's talking to me, it started to sink in - to burn in - that he could never, ever belong to me. So, life pretty much sucks. But, for now, i'll be satisfied with just "good enough".

I have lost her tonight, though she was never mine to begin with. It hurts, thought it would not. I was wrong, I been warned and I was wrong, so wrong this time. Thought she was just another ordinary girl I fell for; it was an understatement. I was wrong.